I don’t usually make New Year’s resolutions. I have found that what starts off as gang busters and a lot of hoopla often turns into “well I’ll try again tomorrow” and tomorrow turns into many yesterdays. So, instead I reflect on or around my birthday about where I’ve been and where I may be going. It’s a birthday I share with Elvis and David Bowie and “Little Rocket Man.” I am of the age when I pay attention to the new medication adverts on the TV machine and wonder if I should ask my doctor if they are right for me. You know, just ask him, start a conversation. I also note that in a 30 or 60 second commercial, about 25% of it is spent on the benefits of the drug and 75% is spent on the endless side effects which usually end with something about death. And while I’m on the subject, what is the deal with Cialis and the two bathtubs one with a man in it and the other with a woman? I thought that Cialis was for men who had ED and if so, is there an unseen hole between the two tubs or is the guy so well endowed enough to manage…well I’ll let your gutter mind fill in the rest. Yes, welcome to my logic. That commercial is right up there with Charlie the Tuna trying his best to get caught so he can be eaten in some sushi bar. Ah, America! 

Speaking of America, is 45 still president? Is there light at the end of this dark, dark tunnel? I’ve often wondered why we accept the abnormal as normal and why his supporters continue to cling to him. We saw this coming since the 2011 correspondents dinner and yet embraced the idea of “real change” without thinking. He wasn’t refreshing, he was predictable and yet the system (not the people) elected him. He wasn’t “telling like it is.” He was being rude and dishonest. He’s been called (and, it seems, rightly so) The Narcissist In Chief. So I looked up the word and it’s accompanied disorder to better understand it.

An exaggerated sense of self-importance. An unwarranted belief in your own superiority. A preoccupation with fantasies of your own success, power and brilliance. An unreasoning fury at people you perceive as thwarting your wishes or desires. A tendency to act on impulse…

A need to always be right. An inability to tolerate criticism or critics… A compulsion to conform your ever–shifting sense of “reality” to satisfy your inner requirements… A tendency to lie so frequently and routinely that objective truth loses all meaning.” ( Mayo Clinic’s formulation )

That explains a lot, but it doesn’t excuse the behavior of the man. Many of us thought that the Presidency would change him into a statesman, but the opposite happened. He has changed the presidency . He seems to be stuck in the 7th grade using the rhetoric of a spoiled child against any and all who would dare to criticize. Yes we are still in the tunnel and maybe just around the bend there is a light signifying the end of this darkness. Mueller? Mueller? Meanwhile, I’m going to ask my doctor if it (any it) is right for me.

and so it goes…