I know this information has kept you on the edge of your seat for most of the week and has probably distracted you from your greater work. Great opportunity, great adventure and Europe, OK Scotland at least. I journeyed to Edinburgh and back on Virgin, getting my knee whacked overtime the food cart made its way up and down the aisle for the 10 1/2 hours to and from. I’ve had a week to sit on it so now I thought it would be the time to let go of it. I left the castle with a financial package that was sweetened in a matter of hours from the original offer, leading me to believe they really wanted me. That’s an ego boost in itself, as if I needed an ego boost, after all i have mirrors and I am a customer of Virgin Mobile. sigh…
Below is a copy of my e-letter that I wrote the administration that pretty much explains why I turned them down.
I want to thank you for your generous and warm hospitality for this odd Californian’s visit to your hospital last week. I cannot imagine another place which not only caught my imagination but became a place that was not only familiar but comfortable. I didn’t feel I was a visitor but felt welcomed. This has to be your doing because an enterprise the size of Castle Craig just doesn’t happen by accident. It happens because of a vision from the top and many years of fine honing and development. My inclusion in a few of the patient group meetings and debriefing sessions as well as the morning staffing without any reservations only added to the extremely positive experience. Thank you for that.
After I returned to Pacifica, I needed to debrief with my wife and we hashed over all of the positives and negatives about considering your generous second offer. After money issues were discussed, we talked about “hearts desire” and full-time employment. Through the discernment process I came to the conclusion that perhaps I was not ready to take on a full-time job at this time. I know that I need to do something, that’s just my nature. So none of the usual obstacles were an impediment to accepting your offer. Moving to Scotland for an extended period of time was OK, being away from my family and friends was not an issue, compensation was not an issue. I had no tangible or practical negatives except one, working full-time. I guess I am a wimp and I wonder why I never thought of this before. I sat on this for a while and decided although I could handle anything that was thrown at me and could be up to speed at Castle Craig quickly in a warm and supportive environment, I don’t feel at this time this wonderful opportunity is for me. So with regret I need to decline your offer.
I want to thank you for your time and warm Irish hospitality and only wish you, the staff and supporting staff all the best in your great life and death work with folks struggling against the scourge of addiction.
Castle Craig is truly blessed with you at the helm.
All the very best,
So what it really came down to was wanting to work full-time again. At this point, I don’t want to, not just yet. And that, as they say, is that.
So it goes…